38 Weeks

Today I am officially 38 weeks into my pregnancy.  Things have been so strange with this pregnancy.  There would be days where my contractions would be pretty regular and then they start getting further apart and then just stop.  It was so frustrating.  Yesterday the royals Prince William and Kate had a little boy and I was getting so frustrated because it seemed like things were progressing so much and then nothing.  I even wondered if I would be going into the hospital, but I am still here.  The thing that makes it worse is that people keep asking me "oh you're still around, huh?"  On the one hand I think to myself I'm only 38 weeks.  I'm not overdue.  On the other hand, I feel overdue.  I think that may be because I'm getting frustrated with being limited in my activities.  That and the fact that i was also early with both my other two kids.  

The closer it gets to the end of the month, the more nervous I get about this little guy coming on the same day as my biological father's birthday.  I know that shouldn't bother me, but it does.  I know this may sound selfish, but I also don't want our baby to be born today or on Pioneer Day (July 24th) because I want to see the fireworks and not from a hospital window.  On the other hand, I don't want to worry about what I'll do when Brian goes back to work his schedule this week on Thursday.  It makes me very anxious.  

This coming Friday is my last doctors appointment that I had scheduled mainly because I kept forgetting to schedule two more around my due date and also because I usually go early anyway.  I'm really hoping if nothing happens between now and Friday, that I will be far enough progressed that my doc will admit me.  I also worry about who will be available to watch my kiddos depending on when we have our little guy.  I guess we'll see how this week plays out.  Right now I'm just trying to have faith that everything will work out.