New Calling (Update)

On October 16th, I (Amy) was called to be a Welfare Specialist in Emergency Prep. You know the old say "be careful what you pray for, you may get it?" That's pretty much what happened. I had been praying that my family and I would be prepared temporally for whatever could happen. I also knew a calling was coming because my bishop had mentioned that my name had been discussed in meetings. I had to wait about two or two and a half weeks to find out what my calling could possibly be. It was agonizing! 

After I was called, my bishop informed me of this CERT (Community Emergency Response Team) training that could help me. So on October 29th, I took the training class. It was very informative. I PASSED!

I did however feel that there was so much I needed to do and learn and I started to feel little overwhelmed. The training was pretty cool though. I got to put out a few fires with a fire extinguisher. That was fun! After my training, I wanted to teach our family about some of the things I had learned. So for our next FHE, I did it on emergency prep. The kids loved it! I think it was mainly because I let them put on my PPE (personal protective equipment).

I later started struggling with irrational fears and started overthinking things. I started getting easily frustrated and fault finding. I started feeling my testimony weaken even though I was still reading and praying every day. It seemed like things were getting more difficult with family and slowly crumbling little by little. 

Finally one morning as I was praying I just begged to help me feel something or get some help. As I read that morning, I was chastised and humbled with the chapter I had read in that day. I was actually quite grateful for that. Things aren't 100% better, but I do feel like I can move forward instead of dwelling so much on the problems I had.